I'm such a horrible story teller and I always say the wrong things ): either that or things just come out wrong and afterwards i'll feel so bad. And seriously, I actually do feel bad.

Actually i kind of like to do random things and would like to do more random things.

OMGGGGGGGG 1 month has really flown by. So many things have happened, but for better or worse I am not absolutely certain yet. Then again there is no need to be absolutely certain because we should take things as they come, and go. I am so happy though I can fit into my old jeans!!! Somehow weight loss is something that happens to people (or so I've heard) after a relationship ends. Maybe I just don't eat so much/ spend so much time eating so much anymore. I can no longer wear my newer shorts though. It's time to start shopping for school! And I haven't got much time/ money on my hands anymore. Things are starting to get busy.

Driving lesson today was fine, first time driving in the circuit. My steering has improved dramatically. And I say dramatic because I could never use to steer properly at all, but now things seem to be fine. The circuit lesson cost me an extra $33. This means that I got yet another tan for $33. I shall seriously spray on some sunblock for my next driving lessons, or wear long sleeves. I haven't driven in the rain before!!! I hope it rains on my next driving-around lesson. Tomorrow's lesson I will learn vertical parking. And after that, I shall be ready!!!! I hope. The car still keeps stalling on the slope. Scaryzzzzzz.

Lalalalalala. By cancelling driving lesson on Thurs, i am in part solving my problem of bankruptcy. Because i only have 37 dollars to last me till next Fri, i will have to avoid going out at all costs. But Friday night i will have to go out because i miss my friends too much. And Sunday night i will be out too. And Monday evening i have a driving lesson, which means I WILL BE IN DEBT. Because i will spend all my money on Fri. Ahahaha.

I should stop spending money stupidly!!! Goodness. But things are fine. I got my CDs and I am happy because they were paid for by Daddy. Yay. I will remember to return Alfred his book on Friday.

It's really quite amazing what life is like now!

Doing great stuff like teaching, and even practising the piano (a bit). Catching up with old friends. Sitting at the computer and sounding the hunter's horn and losing $ at poker. Buying and reading new books. Oh, and paying for my driving lessons! Leaving me with no more money to go out and be crazy and have fun. HAHAHA.

No lah, life is fun either way. I have $ in the ez-link card so I can go to wherever I want. I will ask Daddy for $$ to go buy nice CDs and books. And have fun because if I don't have fun now I don't know when I can ever have this much time on my hands again. Maybe only when my kids are like married and my grandchildren grown. Wow, that's a long time later, isn't it? That's like 2 more times my current lifespan later. At least!

I miss all the people from 08S07C and the MEPeople and I really hope we can meet up soon.

1. Dear 7Cs, let's go back and have fun and take a nice picture by the eco pond. I hope we'll have another class lunch thing so that I can be in the photograph with you all. Miss you all!
2. Dear MEPeople, we should meet up somewhere and make some random music that we used to in the Room. And play the wedding march like we did once and rehearse for whoever's wedding. This is fun. Love you all!

And when I marry my Rich Husband, I will have money to buy poker chips to lose!

Life goes on. NUS has finally received my supporting documents. Tomorrow I will pay SMU and post the supporting documents. I'll be $15 poorer. It'll be worth the money though. Everything will be done.

And I'll have to teach in the afternoon. I'll have to get new clothes. I'll have to think of what to wear. Haha. Things haven't seem to have changed much. Teaching is fun, though. I like teaching alot alot. It's such great joy that I experience. I must start learning my pieces properly!! It's time. Really time.

Actually nothing's happening in my life. Everyone seems to be having so much fun!! And seems to be fussing over... stuff. Somehow I feel like I'm not worried enough, and not fussing enough over university applications. I should be, shouldn't I? Especially scholarship applications? I'm such a horrible daughter. I'm not bothering enough to relieve my parents of the financial burden of paying for my university education.

Please let my life be more happening!!! Actually, I think, I should be the one making things happen. Well I've made plenty of things happen. For one, I delivered the package myself, and nearly suffered a heart attack. For two, I'm glad you're not caring because it just makes it a whole lot easier for me. And for the rest of the world to know, I'M SINGLE. So please date me (:

Sometime last week, I suddenly knew what I wanted. In my wildest dreams. Which, are not very wild.

In my twenties, I would spend a year or two travelling in Europe, to enjoy its culture and live the life of its people. I would take beautiful pictures and have beautiful experiences. Then I would come back, meet people and ask them: Have you been happy these past 2 years? I would probably hear responses like, I'm trying to work towards this/that. They're not happy, are they? I was happy, even if I didn't have enough money to buy Louis Vuitton while I was in France, or Tod's while I was in Italy. I had beautiful pictures and I was happy.

In my thirties, I would be a mother, and doing very well indeed. A housewife. Even after studying so hard for so many years? Yes. And no, it is not a waste. I would have life experiences to share with them, and of course, I would be there to bring them up myself. It doesn't matter that I had to give up a career to do this. I would try to be the best mother that I can be so that my children would be useful to the people they meet, and the society they live in.

In my forties, I would tell my children, look at these beautiful photographs. These were taken by me some 20 years ago. One day you shall go back to Europe, and see how much or how little it has changed. May you appreciate its beauty, immerse in its culture and come back a mature musician, maybe? Don't be afraid to let go of what you have of you and head overseas to study/live/get married. I was afraid to, but I have no regrets because you are the greatest gifts I have ever received. Just remember, I will continue to do my best for you, because my family is my life, and my life is my family.

Who cares what happens after that? I might have grandchildren even, and I would continue to work and persevere, and help my children to mould them into what would be best for them and everyone else. And I would be happy and contented.

* Unfortunately, all these require $$. I shall have to work hard for it, as well as marriage. Then again, shouldn't I be writing my application essays before I think about all these?

Selling a Creative Zen Stone in black for $40. It's completely new and unopened, and can store 500 songs because its 1GB. Please do let me know if you want it thanks.

MEP chalet was the best fun I've ever had! I was indeed a liberating experience. I love my MEP friends. I don't see how I can actually describe the experience, but as a note to self: BBQ, mahjong, Wii boxing and tennis (omg I love beating Oi Man up!!), the adi tala (takadhimitakajunu) + drink the 40% alcohol that isn't 40% game, truth or dare, private moments of revelation, koko krunch + milo... Despite the little sleep that I got, I'm glad that I chose to do music. I'm glad that I was at least competent enough to be able to do it as a subject, and experience the warmth and fun that these friends have to offer.

Music's in 2 days time. Honestly neo-classicism isn't my thing. Neither is world music. I thought music was more my thing than chemistry, but really, it feels much more fulfilling to do an entire chemistry paper! It seems like I'm not getting anywhere, and I feel frustrated after 5 minutes or so. Then I take 15 minute breaks on facebook, club penguin and the fridge. Not good.

On Wednesday life is going to begin. I ought to do something good with it. I keep confusing myself but I should and must do things that will keep me happy because school has made me feel very unhappy indeed. I really really really can't wait for Wednesday and my excitement is somewhat getting in the way of my studying! I really should start on world music and memorise my dhin dhin dhage tirakita tun na kat ta dhage tirakita dhin na (ektal!!) because it's already mid-afternoon. And stop visiting the fridge because there's really no food left. The chalet on Wed sounds like a really liberating experience but I realise I have to pack many stuff. And I have to staple my pulcinella book.

My fingernails are long I could get killed! Not actually absolutely long... But they're longer than ever. I've not cut them for almost 2 weeks. It's quite an achievement for me considering that I cut them twice a week during my piano playing days. I'm going to get them painted and I'll leave them long for the rest of the year I don't care. I wonder if acrylic nail extensions are fun! I'm going to slack off piano playing. Somehow it just got me really fed up with it this year. Next year I'll learn and analyse the entire WTC 1 I think it's going to be so amazing! Bach and I are going to be one! And with violin lessons (though I haven't found a teacher because I haven't even tried) I'll eventually do my diploma. Sounds good :D

I know that there's so much of me that I have not dared to find. But it's okay because I'm going to find myself someday.

This is killing me!!!!!!!! Music's in a week and I have yet to start studying for it. I'm totally not in the mood to study and there is so much to study. It doesn't help that I screwed prac up terribly a month and a half ago. I just means that I should totally be studying harder so that I can remember Indian and Gamelan terms properly for the first time in my life.

Regarding a separate matter, I believe things will get better sooner rather than later. We'll see.

THEY'RE COMING BACK TMR OOOOOOOH.
My sexy sister won a sexy silver <3


I need a violin teacher! If someone can find me one, I would like to start lessons in January thank you. You can tell the teacher that his/her student will be exceptionally talented and hardworking, and has been learning to play the piano properly for as long as she can remember. By the way, the student is a lifelong learner, because she is already at the ripe old age of eighteen. She will have to pay for the lessons herself so...

I will be available next year to

1. Teach you how to read notes, recognise keys on the keyboard and play the piano
2. Accompany you for whatever by playing the piano
3. Help you with school projects, especially writing reflections
4. Give you tuition
5. Provide tips for loser Singaporean guys who don't feel that they suck (although they actually do)
6. Be your best friend forever (like Paris Hilton)

Package deals are available and negotiable. I am nice and lovable, young and energetic. I'm really fun to spend time with! See you [:

I miss my darling!! And mommy of course. Can't wait for Friday!

Apparently the food's not up to standard at all. Mommy says it's the best slimming centre ever. And people are falling sick because the weather's really hot so the ambulance has been coming to pick people up. I hope they'll be fine I totally want to go to the airport to pick them up I hope it doesn't clash with chem or sthg. Today's econs was bad I dunno, econs is usually bad anyway. I've got a break (sort of) tomorrow where I study chemistry for (almost) the last time. I'm gonna dump my stuff soon! At this point in time, killer litter sounds really appealing! It's like gonna be really thrilling and it'd be cool. Ok no lah. I'd die carrying everything first. So it's killer litter anyway. Heehee. My room's gonna be really neat after this! And the pink arch files (6 of them) are going to be NOT thrown away so my sister can use them next time. So I basically have to empty my files.

It was really hot this morning that I almost became a black chicken. Now it's stormy and a little scary. Because there's lightning, and it's not that lightning is scary, but the thunder that comes later (BECAUSE SOUND TRAVELS SLOWER THAN LIGHT HAHAHA I KNOW THAT) is usually loud. It's still more pleasing than techno music though. The weather's been like, weird recently.

Ok I'm bored! I should go and prepare dinner. It's fun! But it's boring because I can't laugh about it with my asshole darling. IMSO ( = International Mathematics and Science Olympiad) means 'I am asshole'. So there's no denying that now, sexy.

It was rather quiet at home last night ]:
I miss my mummy and my sister because they're enjoying themselves at some Indonesian resort island. And it was only daddy and I at home and daddy can get quite boring because he only wanted to sleep. Hahaha. But it's alright because my brilliant sister appeared on the Indonesian newspaper I hope they bring a million copies back so that I can distribute it, and brag about my sister at the same time. Btw she's there for some Science Olympiad thing and mind you, she's the only girl representing Singapore.


My sister is so sweet and pretty; my father is so hairlessly handsome!

Two years ago my birthday was fun because it was concert at Esplanade.
Last year's birthday was rather sad for, well, reasons.
This year's was quite different because it was the first time ever that I had an exam on it. And it just had to be the last time I'm touching math. Yay?

I didn't ever expect 14th November to ever mean so much to me!
Mummy and meizzzzz will be back on fourteenth.
And it'll be the last time I'm touching chemistry.
Then IT'LL ONLY BE MUSIC LEFT!!! :D

My current lifestyle is far too relaxed! Night in Rodanthe made me cry. The skyline of Singapore is beautiful. Anyway kids nowadays are more kaypoh than the aunties who gossip. Today was simply fantastic.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUMEE!
Please do not use the condom! And by that, I mean Abstain. Thank you very much.

Anyway, I couldn't resist yearbookyourself.com so I yearbooked my Sexy Sister. It was a most unflattering shot, so it is no wonder that the yearbook photos turned out to be extremely hilarious. To protect her privacy, she will not appear in this entry! HAHAHAHA.

Cool video on photosynthesis.
The tune's stuck in my head! And I'm supposed to be learning about Indian music.

I am amazingly unprepared for the A levels! Even with all the excuses (read: H3, music practical, music portfolio and personal portfolio) out of the way, I have yet to make any significant progress, or any that I even be remotely happy with. I did not turn up for GP mock, and did not even sign up for Math mock. My attitude is horrible.

I'm not even bothered about applying for universities, and my reason is that I have no idea what I want to do or where I want to go. It's such a goalless, aimless life that I am leading, very unfortunately. I envy those who knew a long long time ago exactly what profession they want, or what university they want to attend. But the more time I spend thinking about what I might actually do, I'm beginning to believe that I simply to not have the courage to make a decision. I don't trust myself to make a decision that I am certain I would not regret! Whatever it is, that is still not a very valid excuse regarding my current lifestyle in which mugging is seriously lacking.

But I was sick, I was sick! I am currently spending most of my time blowing my nose because of some sinus problem, which causes my heavy head and extreme lethargy. Dr doctor says, Let's force your excess mucus by swallowing ten pills over a five-day period! I must have already used up enough tissue to fill up MacRitchie reservoir. And my poor nosey organ is sore from molestation by many many pieces of tissue paper. Argh. I ought to start studying really seriously. After all, Chem mock is this afternoon, and I shall be meeting some Gamelan tomorrow.



She's my Sexy Bunny woohoo. I owe her 2 rabbits and since she's a Bunny, rabbits = playmates. Yay!

Yay I think we managed to catch everyone who was in the lift. We're not fat!!!

( Colour IQ )
This is really cool, Jane.

I need to do some work, really! :D