Today was quite an interesting day. I got to school slightly earlier than usual. Before 7am! So I had to take my matric card and tap it and hear the 'beep' and the sound of the door being unlocked. Found a meeting room with a working thermostat. Looked out the window, and thought, ah what nice blue sky. The sky is always nice and blue in the mornings with magnolia white clouds that look appetising. Yum.

Food of love for lunch. Then today's struggle with post-lunch lethargy resulted in a resounding victory by Sleep. So i sort of slept for one hour. Even listening to Hindemith I could sleep! Must have been tired. Nothing much done after that. Attempts to concentrate. Oh, and a trip down to study room to eat nice and wobbly egg tart from Singapore. Hahaha! But the afternoon was cold and gloomy and wet and rainy :( I hate thunder. I hate how lightning makes me anticipate it by automatically moving to cover my ears. I'm not afraid or scared of the noise. I just Really Dislike the loud noise. It's very unsettling, somehow. The loud noise messes with my heart and with my mind, then everything goes haywire. It's interesting how i'm so easily affected by the weather.

Food of love for dinner, too. Love: sitting with family at coffee table in front of the television for dinner. Usual practice. Hahaha nice, just that Daddy's in Vietnam. Would have been nicer if he was here! Yumyum food and hot soup. Mummy actually offered to bring dinner to school for me, but i decided to come home for dinner for a change. It was the wisest and bestest decision I made this whole week! I am very happy. Although, I was extremely traumatised by my sister. She was practising the piano. Haha but she shall get better with more practice. So now, I can hear Mummy playing Bejeweled again. it seems like she has problems not only with the Bejeweled Man, but the gems as well. Goodness! But really, it's great to be at home. It's so comfortable here.

When you wake up, it's sunny and all.
Then midday, the rain starts to fall.

Wonder why the clouds,
our hopes which have risen so high,
have to cry.
Is it wrong, to hope?

But there'll always be a new day.
To better appreciate the
Warmth
and represent Hope.

Tomorrow will always be a better day.
It must, so that
we have something to live for.

___
Song of the moment:
Guns N' Roses - November Rain

It's such a nice Saturday afternoon! I am now having a headache after falling asleep after eating a slice of cheese. I'm always eating cheese these days. Well, while i'm home, at least. There's so much cheese in the fridge for me! I was reading Gunapathy, the long sad journey. The next thing i knew, i was awake! Haha. It's horrid cos i don't even konw when i fell asleep. Haha but i think my body just needs rest and it responded by falling asleep. So, i shall not think about how much time i spent asleep. Anyway, sleep is good!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN!

I had such a nice lunch!! It was... eggs. 2 eggs. One scrambled (though without milk), and one sunny side up. And a can of Marks&Spencers french onion & cider soup. But now i'm hungry again. Yes, even after that slice of cheese. I always wake up hungry. And headachey. Boo Boo.

Well, I'd like to visit the moon
On a rocket ship high in the air
Yes, I'd like to visit the moon
But I don't think I'd like to live there
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I might like it for one afternoon
I don't want to live on the moon

I'd like to travel under the sea
I could meet all the fish everywhere
Yes, I'd travel under the sea
But I don't think I'd like to live there
I might stay for a day there if I had my wish
But there's not much to do when your friends are all fish
And an oyster and clam aren't real family
So I don't want to live in the sea

I'd like to visit the jungle, hear the lions roar
Go back in time and meet a dinosaur
There's so many strange places I'd like to be
But none of them permanently

So if I should visit the moon
Well, I'll dance on a moonbeam and then
I will make a wish on a star
And I'll wish I was home once again
Though I'd like to look down at the earth from above
I would miss all the places and people I love
So although I may go I'll be coming home soon
'Cause I don't want to live on the moon
[This is beautiful]

Today was a bad day. Felt funny after lunch, went to sleep, woke up feeling even funnier, in an uncomfortable sort of way. And since i slept the whole afternoon away, i haven't gotten much done at all. I was supposed read the contract cases. Then do the tutorial, or read SLS session 6 which i didn't last week. Why am i feeling so tired? This sucks. Maybe going to bed when you're feeling down means not having a good night's sleep. I guess that's true, considering how unsettling my dreams were.

Haha and i'm such a Twitter addict. While napping there was a loud clap of thunder which jolted me out of my afternoon slumber (haha?!). I woke up, went to Macky and TWEETED ABOUT THE THUNDER, then went back to lie on my bed and continue sleeping. I'm still feeling very weird. Today is such a bad day.

So, it's the end of my birthday weekend and i have just started on contract. About 15 minutes ago? Haha i'm here because i'm already almost asleep. I think i haven't slept enough. Maybe i should sleep more. I think i will.

Yesterday i spent another morning of my Birthday Weekend teaching. Very exciting indeed! After that i stoned around then went out for dinner!! Thanks lovely Sumee Audrey Cheeyao Junqi Kevin Nic Zhifeng for celebrating with me, thanks for the present and the free dinner hahahaha! :) I am rather tired from all the playing (although it appears now that 15 minutes of contract is far more tiring than a weekend-full of play!) which kind of explains the lack of energy in this post. Hahaha there are so many photos to look through and upload. I shall be taking my time with that. In any case, it was by far the best weekend i've had in ages, and it was much needed, too.

Thank you people for so much so much <3

IT WAS SUCH A PLEASANT SURPRISE. I am happy and relieved and everything :) I really really couldn't ask for more. I'm really touched. it was really so sweet. I think it was exactly what i needed at this point. I'm so so so so glad. I could go on and on about this, actually. But shall just leave it at that. Because, things are just Like That. Nice and comfortable.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Last night, i had such a great time. Having a nice dinner at a nice place with my WONDERFUL FAMILY with great food. Hahaha which birthday celebration is complete without a nice dinner at a nice place? Well it wouldn't be, for my family at least. Not that we need the food. We're happy and fine on our own. Just that we're all damn greedy and like food. So. HAHAHA. Great food. Thank you Daddy Mummy Meiz. Even though you guys don't read this. I really had such a wonderful time, i couldn't ask for more. Previously, my best birthday celebration was 7Nov2006 when it was the Esplanade Recital Studio concert (Beethoven Op. 31 No. 3, 1st movt, I remember) and i wore my green dress and had Nasi Lemak for dinner. THIS YEAR'S OWNZ EVERYTHING. Haahahaha. It's great to spend time with the family and talk serious stuff and crazy stuff and stilly stuff and whatever else. Thank you for being there for me! LOVE YOU ALL. Once again, i am very thankful. Ever thankful.

SHIT I'M SCREWED. Cos. I think i spoilt one of the keys. It's the C that is 2 octaves below the middle C. It doesn't bounce back up!!!!! And. There's a funny sound coming from inside the piano when i play the A above the middle C. I THINK I SPOILED MY PIANO SHITZZZZ. I shall have to tell Mummy/Daddy later. Actually it's not really my fault lah. It's cos...

My piano muscles are back!! My fingertips are hurting. THIS FEELS GOOD HAHAHAHA. I'm so happy. Thank you Brahms Mendelssohn Copland Granados Beethoven Mozart. You guys are fantastic. Actually. I only just realised i played so many composers. I feel like a FLIRT hahaha. I love the company of these guys. But most importantly, The Boyfriend!!!!! I WILL DIE WITHOUT YOU. THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME. I LOVE YOU FOREVER <3

Thank you for tolerating my random spamming and banging. I've never felt so strong at the piano before. I think it's because i really haven't played the piano for ages so i have lots and lots of accumulated energy to spare. My fingertips are flat now. And red. Hahaha but now my arms feel like jelly. Melly jelly. Melly jelly welly. BUT I'M HAPPY. Although it sucks not being able to express what i want to sometimes. But today, i'm happy to be able to sit by your side and run my fingers across you. You're beautiful did you know that?

I'm so glad the thought of pursuing music never seriously crossed my mind. I'm so glad that i never seriously considered it. Because music has always been something i turned to, outside of school, away from everything else. And it's been such a long time already... 14 years? I'm glad it has been a part of me for almost my entire lifetime. Haha and each time i play a piece i learn something new. About the piece, about myself. It's great! I enjoy this learning very much. I'm so thankful for the opportunity to educate, because my students have taught me so much about myself, somehow. I'm so thankful for lawschool, because whenever i have the opportunity to play the piano, i tend to appreciate it so much so much more.

And I played myself a Birthday Song in G major. Heehee.

What better way to start my day, than with one of my most favourite activities. Sister told me to not teach on my birthday. Actually, before that the thought never crossed my mind at all. So this morning, i spent an hour each with two of my students. Haha. I was tired and sleepy. But i gave them free stickers today. Spirit of giving. Even though both of them didn't do their theory homework. I think they're very lucky today. Maybe it was Birthday Motivation, i was uhm more motivated to expend energy. I think that made lesson more exciting for them too. Oh, how i miss the pre-lawschool days when teaching was my only real activity and i had the energy to put in so much more effort. But i will continue trying.

Had lunch with myself. It's great, having some ME TIME on my Birthday, in the midst of a hectic Birthday Weekend. Nothing fantastic, just a $2.90 lunch from random coffeeshop in Bukit Gombak. But i'm happy. Anyway, Birthday Girl is supposed to have Birthday Luck. So, wanted to buy 4D to test it out HHAHAHAHA but the queue was LONG and there were no hot guys to stare at because... only old uncles were queueing. HAHA. So, i guess i don't get to have a shot at testing my Birthday Luck. So no Windfall. It's okay, though, i got pay today. Should be enough to pay for my taxi fares and dinners. At least the money came from doing what i enjoy, not because i stood bravely amongst the dirty old men. Muahaha.

So, now i shall go spend some time with The Boyfriend. YAYYYYYY (good luck neighbours)

I know why I'm having such an odd feeling. I shall recognise it and accept it. I think humans are such complex beings that it's possible to feel many things at once. Like how i'm experiencing such great joy, yet at the same time experiencing abit of sadness. But it's ok. Because it will be enough knowing that when i'm happy, i am truly and genuinely happy. I think that's all that matters because to have at least one reason to experience great joy is such a blessing already. And to experience it deep down in my heart is something I'm so very thankful for.

I think i'm not being fair to myself if i let a single negative emotion (or maybe two) overpower my positive ones, and subsequently overwhelm my entire being. Physically, emotionally, psychologically. I think i can be happy and sad at the same time. So, i will let the many many reasons why i am happy WIN. The negative emotions shall have to take a backseat. Hopefully for forever (unlikely though). I will concentrate, for this weekend at least, on being happy. Not that it's hard. I have so so so many reasons to be happy. I will be.

THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME AND FOR ME!!!!
I am extremely thankful and I really couldn't have asked for more. Torts TG, ppl who sang birthday song for me.
Charles and Alyssa for the cookies.
Imran, Mubin for the handshake.
Kevin for skyping with me even though it wasn't a celebration but a rant and nuisance HAHAHA.
ALFRED, AUDREY, MARK, OLIVIA, VICTOR (and Rainer if he counts HAHAHA, ok fine he does)
And the crazy present HAHAHAHA.
Thank you so much so much so much!!!!!! :D

THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR WISHING ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Be it through facebook, msn or sms.
I'm so thankful also that i have unlimited sms HAHAHA. *Act popular*
HAHAHAHAHA I'M SO HAPPY

I'm very thankful for Birthday Week and all. The past few nights have been difficult, and i can sense that my difficult Tonight had started this Morning. Birthday Week dinners to look forward to are welcome distractions!!! But my mind wanders when i have to think about torts or contract or whatever else I'm supposed to be doing. DISCIPLINE!!!!! Chaaaaaaaaannel the energy elsewhere!! Elsewhere!!!!!

@2207hrs: I dislike having to do things.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED!

Even though you're weird and vain and spend lots of money, i think you're fun cos the stuff you buy are nice (although i have to disagree with your taste for BV). I have no money to buy you BV etc. for your birthday because i bought myself a dress the other day. Not that it costs as much as BV etc. but i think getting myself a birthday present is a definite priority! :] Haha actually i only decided to make it my birthday present to myself because i have neither the time nor money to get myself something else.

I'm still pretty amazed that i somehow remembered you from kindergarten, goodness! And it turned out to be true that you were my classmate. My memory ftw. Not that it had any impact on our interaction in the 2 years of JC, but it has always made me cherish you so much as a friend. To meet someone 11 years later, and have him be your classmate once again, then have him in your group of friends... I am always in wonder of it all. So i thought i'd dedicate a post to you here on highclasslian@LJ since i'm on a blogging frenzy these few days anyway. I'm sooooo happy that your skype was working; it's really been way too long.

So, may your nineteenth birthday be a fantastic one. Enjoy your day off, and we have Friday to look forward to! All the best in your endeavours i.e. office job in army. May you experience a windfall so you can buy yourself some BV. No, wait. If i wish for you to get a windfall, and you actually do get one, please get something other than BV.